Wow where do I begin with my emotions? Am I really already 36 weeks pregnant? I am not sure when time started going so fast! I am still at that place where part of my wants the next 4 weeks to fly by… and the other part wants to hit pause for a few more yrs hahaha…. I Just have NO idea what to expect out of having a child- fear of the unknown is making me a nervous wreck. I have NO experience with kids at all- when I hold babies I freeze up and freak out in fear of hurting them- it just doesn’t feel natural to me…. I’ve never changed a diaper either lol. I am going into this whole experience blind- thank God I have my hubby who has TONS of experience with little ones…. and I’ve also got the help of my parents, his parents, my sis in laws, etc. Also many friends who have and will continue to provide guidance- not sure what I’d do without everybody.
I’m also starting to freak out about labor- the moments leading up to it as well. Like- what if I am at work, or on the bus when it starts? I have no idea what a contraction feels like either! Thank goodness my weekly appointments start Friday, because at least then they can give us some kind of idea on if I will be going early or late…. if I’m dialated at all, etc. I also didn’t take a child birth class- partly because there were two other classes I wanted to sign up for more (breastfeeding and safety class)- all of which cost… and partly because I know everyone’s experience is so different, and also I will have Danny, and my mom and his mom there to get me through it…. so I plan on winging it- which freaks me out since I am such a planner. I have read my “What to Expect when Expecting” book- but there is soooooo much info I can’t remember it all!
AHHHHHHHHHH!!! I can’t wait for a few months from now when she is a few months old, I have a schedule again, and things feel more normal.
6 more weeks to go! Feel like it’s dragging yet flying- it’s a weird feeling haha. I think it’s all still tied to the fact that 1) I am SO excited to meet with baby girl but 2) I am SO nervous and scared about so many things (labor, pain, no sleep, not being a good mom, etc.) I do feel better as the days go on because we’re getting more and more organized with her room and everything she’ll need.
We had my family’s baby shower for me on Sunday- it was so nice! My sis in laws did so much for it, along with my Aunt and mother in law, etc. My sis in law Kara made this AMAZING diaper cake which had soooo much stuff in it (diapers, burp cloths, onsies, bibs, bottles, toys, etc.) She also made these awesome Cake Pops that everyone loved- I told her she needs to go in the shower planning business! Or at least sell some stuff for showers 🙂 I don’t know how to re-pay her for all she’s done!! We got so many clothes and let me tell you- Mackenzie may be the most stylish baby ever due to all the cute stuff from these showers!
We also have most of our big items now, because we already bought the crib and dresser, and my mom got us our glider and changing table. His mom got us our bedding set, and his mom/gma/aunts got us our stroller/car seat combo… my Aunt and her daughters/daughter in laws got us a gift card which we used to get out Pack n Play. So we have most of the big item things- just need our monitors, and then smaller stuff like a boppy, safety stuff, more bottles, crib and pack n play sheets, etc.
I need to start my thank you cards now for the shower on Sunday and for people who’ve given me things outside of showers. I feel so truly blessed by all the love I’ve felt these past few months from everyone. I don’t know how to re-pay everyone other than saying THANK YOU. Danny and I are so much more prepared now than we were just a few months ago thanks to all of our family and friends.
So yesterday was the start of 32 weeks! As I keep telling people, I bet I have between 6-10 weeks left depending on when she makes her appearance- 8 weeks til my due date. I am hoping to go right around the due date or up to a week after… I don’t want to be early though.
I had my first baby shower on Sunday May 15! It was awesome! So many friends were there and my bff Missy Davis did an AMAZING job planning it all and decorating it all and got great food and the cutest cake and she really just went above and beyond! She also got me an amazing gift (which she didn’t have to do) with her mom…. my jungle time playmat 🙂 Also a big thank you to Rachel Doan, Stacey Gripshover, Jane Swain and my mom for helping to decorate and clean up! I got tons of cute clothes for Mackenzie, a lot of great stuff for bathtime, fun toys, etc. My mother in law and sis in law Courtney got our bedding set for us. My mom got me a ton of stuff and is also getting our glider and changing table! I already sent out my thank you cards too 🙂
Last night we got a GREAT deal at Babies R Us for a crib originally $300 got it for $100- by using a 20% off coupon, some gift cards, and store credit. So now we just need to find a cheap dresser that somewhat matches, and then we will have all the furniture for her room ready 🙂 Still a lot of other big items left on the registry so we’ll see how that goes at my next shower! We have a ton of 20% off coupons so we’ll be using those on the bigger items that don’t get bought. We also bought our first box (192 count) of Pampers Swaddlers 8-12 pounds last night and some wipes 😉 First of many I’m sure haha. We also bought a new ceiling fan for her room (not that we plan on using a fan on her for a long time, but the one in there now is ugly and doesn’t put off much light.)
I am feeling her move A TON now- not so much kicks, but like rolls and squirms- it’s funny- like I know she is getting cramped and I can feel it haha… I think they said babies at 32 weeks are usually right around 4 pounds. It’s hard to imagine I have a 4 pound living creature inside me haha.
I am feeling a little more organized now that we finally got some actual baby items in her room- but now I have to organize them all once we get the furniture in there 😉 I also need to finish reading my What to Expect when Expecting book and START reading my What to Expect- the first year book. One more baby shower May 29, and one thrown by my work on June 8… and then 2 classes through the hospital in June… and then it’s just a waiting game til she’s here!
So on Monday, I reached the 30 week mark! 10 weeks to go give or take a few days less or more!
Since the last time I posted, I participated in a pregnant flash mob, which as you know I’ve shared the link a thousand times on Facebook- thanks again to everyone who has shared it! It was such a fun experience, and now I have something I can show Mackenzie when she gets a little older. I also got maternity photos taken, which I should have them back soon! I think they got some great shots 🙂 Another way to help Mackenzie see how much we loved her even before she was born.
I have been feeling her move a lot more- especially feeling a hard bump poke out on my right side of stomach which I think is her butt, because she is head down. It’s such a funny strange feeling- makes me laugh. Sometimes I just look at my stomach and it is moving and it’s so awesome.
Had an appointment yesterday- they are starting to be really uneventful- which I guess is better than having a bunch of problems… but it just feels like such a waste of gas (takes 30 min to get there) and time (30 min wait in lobby, 20 min wait to see doctor) and then when the doc comes in she says “Blood pressure and weight look good” she listens to heart beat “sounds good”…. “any problems or concerns?” I say “No” she says “ok see you in 2 weeks”! Soooo I know the appointments are needed to monitor BP and heart and stuff… I just wish they consisted of more! I have to keep going every 2 weeks for the same thing until I have a month left, and then it’s every week- which should get more interesting because then they measure to see how dialated I am, etc.
My showers are so soon which is exciting! Can’t wait to share this moment with my family and friends! I have one on May 15 and one on May 29 :):) And then my work is throwing me one during lunch on June 8 (also my 4 yr wedding anniversary.) I feel loved 🙂 I really appreciate it!
My back has been starting to hurt more- like my upper/mid back I think from the weight gain… I’ve gained 20 pounds now… I only wanted to gain 25, so I guess that is out the window because apparently you gain 1 pound every week til the end- which would take me to 30 pounds total…. meaning I need to lose 30 pounds of baby weight to get back to pre-baby body, AND then I wanted to lose weight pre-baby anyway (like 20 pounds)- so my goal after Mackenzie is born is to lose 50 pounds which sounds damn near impossible lol…. yikes!!!! I better enjoy eating yummy food while I can!!
So I am at 28.5 weeks and still feeling pretty good- upper/middle back ache more frequent now but still sleeping good.
Had my appointment today to check my iron and glucose- passed the iron, and as long as I don’t hear from them in the next 2 days, I passed the glucose too. The glucose drink wasn’t terrible it just wasn’t great. Mackenzie’s heartbeat was strong and I am measuring normally.
So good stuff happening! First, the smallest- I won a free copy of Season 1 of the Walking Dead on DVD from Citybeat!
Second- I have my 3D ultrasound this Saturday now at 1pm- I am soooo super excited to see what our baby looks like! Danny, my parents, and his mom are coming with me. We get a 30 minute session, with a DVD of the session and CD with the pics, and then 6 printed pics of it too.
Third- I also won a free maternity photo shoot with Tracie Jean Photography for May 1 at 4pm! I am hoping they get some good shots so I can someday show Mackenzie how much we loved her even before she was born… I get the free session with a DVD of my shots… and I get to be in their maternity calendar for next yr!
So lots of free stuff these days which is good since I need to save money for this baby who is already spoiled 😉
Looking forward to Easter on Sunday- will be the last Easter that I am not an official Mom… (even though yes I do plan on celebrating Mother’s Day this yr)
So today I am 6 months pregnant, 3 months til my due date- which, we all know can be off so I’ll say- give or take 3 months 😉 I keep feeling like I will go late- like a week late- not sure why… we’ll see-
I have a doctor’s appointment Friday- love those because as long as I hear the heartbeat I know she’s ok for the time being- I am such a worry wart! It is good because she’s been moving a lot more these days- especially in the mornings. Love feeling that because again- I know she is ok.
At my doc appointment Friday is when I take the glucose test- I hope it all turns out fine… that would suck to have gestational diabetes 😦 Anyone have this?
I’m excited my first baby shower is in another month! 🙂 I already got my first gift from my friend Katherine who can’t make it- she got me this: http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=4175571
I am also working on throwing out any clothes I no longer wear (pre-pregnancy ones I know I didn’t wear when I wasn’t pregnant)… and cleaning up the room we’re using as the nursery- we aren’t buying anything for the nursery til after our showers so we’re not wasting money… but I am trying to get what I can done in there. It’s a small room so there won’t be TOO much to do.
Ok I am not a very patient person by nature- my family and even some of my friends can attest to this haha…. so the thought of 14 more weeks until Mackenzie arrives is getting a little unbearable! It isn’t that I am in pain or uncomfortable- I actually feel great… it’s more that I know that it’s coming and it’s the fear of the unknown that I have to deal with for 14 more weeks…. it’s also the fact that the whole month of April and some of May… I really won’t need to DO anything except a doctor’s appointment…
Until my showers on May 15 and May 29, I can’t really decorate the nursery (we are waiting to buy anything until we see what everyone else gets us…) and then I don’t have my safety class and breastfeeding class til June… and so I am just getting anxious, bored, etc. I think about time way too much anyway (even before pregnancy) so I just need something to keep me distracted (and work isn’t cutting it lol.)
And yes, I know everyone who IS a mom is going to tell me “enjoy this time of being pregnant getting sleep, enjoying being a couple a little while longer”… but again, it’s more the anxious fear of the unknown that is driving me insane lol… I am for sure enjoying my sleep and my alone time!